That Led to the Life I Lead
The Readers Digest Version
I discovered the Goddess
and God for the first time,
about the same time as
I discovered sex,
sheer coincidence ...at least I think so.... :) but, I didn't come to them in toto
until many years later
I spent many years, studying
I could get information
or that someone would sit still long enough to tell me about
And I do mean just about all of em example:
Two of the most holy people
I have ever met
were the two Elders who spent an entire summer
with a born again hippie cross legged on the floor,
quietly explaining anything I wanted to know,
no matter how often I said I thought it was,
let's be polite now, not believable.
Which is NOT what I said at 22 :)
I have studied and still
do study the Koran,
the Bhagavad-Gita., the Bible ( several versions )
the ways of Cartouce and Egypt.
I have Attended mass with the Catholics, studied Judaism.
I even spent some time
who are just rebelling against Christianity for the most part
But, I did meet a few
who really believed
what they preached .. even though, it's not for me :)
I have studied the ways of Buddha and still do...
I have texts of Alester
Crowly who is both loved and hated by the Pagan community
but he did kick open a lot of doors for us, for which we have to thank him..even if he was out there.
The Tarot Deck I still use from time to time is his creation, and his book of the Dead is a staple
on every New Age bookshelf in the country.
American beliefs that I highly respect
and am working to know more of
De Ching is a favorite of mine
The words of Confucianism and the Way of integrity
I spent time with Pentecostal holy rollers,
for a good number of years in my youth
I was baptized for the
first time as a Baptist,
which is where I went to church as a child
I have Spent time with a few
assorted Goths, who don't really have a system per se as a group,
but are eclectic as it gets and really into some unusual music and dress for the most part..
but hey..whatever floats your boat
My first Tarot deck was
from a Goth woman who was
" So far out she had never been In "
and didn't give a damn what anybody thought about that fact
I liked her best, for that alone.. :)
I studied the Hebrew Cabala and still do..
So with all this imput,
did I choose to follow the Path of the Mother...?
that fell out of my mouth, like rain from the sky as a young person,
mostly without answers that made sense to me at any rate
From the Christian sects
for the most part
was this failure, but not by any means were they the only ones
The best most of them would do for me was give me books,
which I read and read and read and then they told me to just have faith
more I read, the more questions I asked
for which they had no answers
Until I looked at all
the books again, ignoring the dogma that shrouded them and dicovered one thing,
which was most profound. They were all saying the same thing, when you got rid of the dogmatic " rules"
they all made up to govern the population, and got down to the truths they put forward, they were one in the same thing
So where does the Great
Mother come in to that...?
simple .. in the Pagan faith...any path..
They all say the same thing,
that you must walk the path yourself...!
This, I did not find out for some time.
No one tells you what
is right in the way of the Mother..
or should not, you have to feel what is right for yourself
I realized that was what
I had been doing all of this time,
years spent, to come to one simple fact
I could not learn what
I wanted to know
from just reading a book
I had to feel the truth of things for myself..
I was the Goddess and had to make that contact
with the divine on my own
How did I figure this one out ?
We have a saying..." when
the student is ready the teacher appears"
and one did, a man who had no reason to have anything to do with me in fact, he was just a neighbor ..
not even a friend.. I had seen him many many days coming from the mail boxes and thought nothing of it, until the day
I came to understand that all religion's are one, and was faced with the thought of
If it doesn't make any
difference which one,
as they are all correct when you get past the trimmings... how to pick one? Or should I ?
Do I even have to pick one...?
But about my neighbor..remember
Well one day as I was working in the yard, he passed me, as always,
and I noticed a religious book in his hand
He just got in the mail.
( the cover was real
and large so even from
I could see the pagan artwork on it...)
And I asked him about
Who does one see , or what book to read, to understand more.. ?
And all he said to me
"each person walks that path alone ",
and walked away...
At first I was mad !
I just asked a simple question.....!
But the mother must have told him
just what to say to me,
nothing else would have worked...but he pissed me off,
and that made me look all the harder,
read even more books.
I Tore the library apart
looking for some printed word
that would answer the main question I had now which was..which one..?
And came up with nothing.
Then I thought about
what he said,
and more I thought about
the more sense it made
There is NO one right
way, the answer.
I had sought was there ... inside of me all along,
but I was never still long enough to listen, I was in too much of a frenzy
seeking some authority to tell me what to think
In that stillness we hear
what we need to do
the Mothers voice within
My current path would
that the war of the spiritual warrior is always with the self,
that is is the failure to allow right action to flow though you,
and to get out of the way of the stumbling blocks,
that we ourselves impose...
we, not some
omnipotent God are responsible
for all that we do, and reap benefit or pain,
in the here and now, for said actions, right or wrong
( You could just hear the Mother sigh....it's about time...)
As our Earthly mother
teaches us to be independent,
so too The Great Mother of us all, there is no
'lay it all in the lap of the gods ' she will toss it back at you
and tell you it's time to grow up and take actions for yourself...!
If you don't like things,
change em, work with me,
to change the things that need changing, that can be changed,
and I will help you endure what cannot be.
Acts of love and joy are her rites,
and every act of pleasure is an act of worship
The more joy in your life,
the more you can handle it when the feces hits the oscillating device,
and even then, the way of the Mother makes you look at even that
I have found over time,
when the same stuff keeps happening to me,
it's because of something I have failed to learn
and Mother keeps hitting me with it !
( Sometimes with a BIG
hammer as I can be dense )
until I figure it out...as the Runes would say... to" learn the lessons of adversity"
BUTT PRINTS IN THE SAND
One night I had a wondrous
One set of footprints there was Seen,
The footprints of the Goddess they Were,
But mine were not along the Shore.
But then some stranger prints Appeared,
And I asked Her, "What have we here?
These prints are large and round and Neat,
But much too big to be from Feet."
"My child," She said in somber Tones,
"For miles I carried you Alone.
I challenged you to walk in Faith,
But you refused and made me Wait."
"You would not learn, you would not Grow,
The walk of faith, you would not Know,
So I got tired, I got fed Up,
And there I dropped you on your Butt.
"Because in life, there comes a Time
When one must fight, and one must Climb,
When one must rise and take a Stand,
Or leave their butt prints in the Sand."
-- Author Unknown --
Blessings on the Unknown hand
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